Two years ago this month, August 2015, I wrote my first blog in an effort to heal myself from some things that were keeping me from my destiny and purpose. The title was 8-1…The First Day of My New Beginnings. I was so proud of myself. Looking back at the post, I realized that I was still not completely honest, nor prepared for my healing process. Maxine Waters did something that day in Congress that changed what I and fellow African-American women will no longer tolerate: being silenced, talked over and man-splained. It is a call for women and people of color to reclaim their time and power.
For me, it was a call to action to get back up, reclaim time lost and press the reset button on Tear The Veil, Inc. I allowed “life” to shift my focus off my purpose and destiny to the cares of the world, and my season that God has already given me victory over. I slowly and comfortably placed the “veil” back on, wallowed in my perception of how my life was going and dropped the ball on the path to my Destiny. I revisited that post and decided to revise it the place in my life that I am now.
The number eight in the Bible signifies Resurrection and Regeneration. It is the number of a new beginning. Eight is 7 plus 1 and since it comes just after seven, which itself signifies an end to something, so eight is also associated with the beginning of a new era or that of a new order.
In 2016, I fell back into a spiritual coma, having a breathing machine called “survival” where I rested in its safety to keep me alive and breathing. I was not “brain dead” though. I went to work, my brain had to be fully functional because I am a paralegal, excuse me..an Advanced Certified Paralegal in Contracts Management and Administration. Big Stuff! I am a wife, a mother of three wonderful children, two of them adults. I am an entrepreneur of two or three businesses. I was alive, on a breathing machine but I was in a comatose state, trying to figure out, where my life was going…AGAIN!
“It’s in you” I would hear folks whisper. “Girl you got this, it’s in you, that’s what you do…” “OMG, Girl you are sitting on a gold mine with these products…” But when I looked in the mirror, I still couldn’t see what they saw. The gifts, the potential, the talent; the opportunity to make money making products that “just came to me.” Yet I was fighting to live. Life had taken its toll on me. Circumstances, valley moments, pain, hurt, disappointments, joy, laughter, happiness, all rolled into one.
There is a battle for my life, a war for my soul. I fight daily to stay in the game of life. Satan has asked God permission to wreak havoc in my life on several occasions. I am fighting, at times surrendering, but as August marks the 8th month of the year 2017, I am reclaiming my time lost, and pressing the reset button. I am coming out of my coma and into my destiny that is waiting for me.
My day has come, my seasons are here! All that was within me is starting to become ALIVE. It took 3 months of “rehabilitation” my destiny gene is unlocking, my circle of friends is changing, my way of thinking is changing. I am awake, journeying into my DESTINY.
I look in the mirror and ask myself “What is holding me back from living my BEST LIFE?” The answer was simple…”ME”
Whenever anybody tries to distract me or block me (even with praise or platitudes) I’m gonna have to let them know that I’m #ReclaimingMyTime!!!!!!!”
There will be GLORY after this!!!