“The minute I get out of my own way, I will see the road ahead.” -Dominique McCullough.
I have been on this journey since 2015. Maybe longer and I just was unaware. My journey started out of pain, hurt and disappointment in myself mainly. Conscious and unconscious actions and decisions led me down a path of self-destruction. I had convinced myself that I was destined for a life of struggle. I would get what I wanted, but it would come harder than everyone else. As a result, I built this wall to keep hurt and pain away. If anyone tried to enter, I fought like hell.
Yes, I have been on this journey in search of my purpose, my reason for being. My Destiny…“In the Messiah, He chose us in love before the creation of the universe to be holy and without defect in His presence”–Ephesians 1:4 Complete Jewish Bible. However, what I see is a broken little girl, who grew up to be a broken woman, in search of healing…
I have heard the voice of the prophets, I have heard the small still voice of the Holy Spirit. I also heard the voice of Fear, and Doubt; Procrastination and Distraction. Sets of “twins” whose job is to convince me that all God has said about me in Ephesians 1 is not true. But I have pushed through it, fighting for what God has for me. Not always leaning on Him, often times leaning on my own understanding. But God keeps me, covers me, because “In all His wisdom and insight, He has made known His secret plan, which by His own will He designed beforehand in connection with the Messiah and will put into effect when the time is ripe-His plan to place everything in heaven and on Earth under the Messiah’s Headship.” Ephesians 1:8-10 Complete Jewish Bible. Therefore His plan must come to fruition. His purpose for me.
When the launch of Tear The Veil, Inc. did not happen. I was disappointed and embarrassed. I was faced with yet another hurdle, and although I really tried to tell myself, that this is all in God’s Plan, my mind, was working overtime to show me my failure. One morning I woke up and found this in my inbox: You have endured everything from inconvenience to hardship with every circumstance leading to the understanding of life, people and yourself. The lessons learned have been invaluable and ultimately have had the potential of making you stronger than you have ever been as you trust Me in all things. You are truly being transformed into My image, says the Lord.
2 Corinthians 3:18 So all of us, with faces unveiled, see as in a mirror the glory of the Lord; and we are being changed into His image, from one degree of glory to the next, by Adonai the Spirit. That confirmed it all for me. Tear The Veil Inc., is going to launch as one of the most phenomenal women’s empowerment organizations in this nation…In His timing.
There is a purpose in the wilderness, my wilderness. In 2015, I traveled to Bali and climbed to the top of the Batur Volcano Mountain. It took two and half hours. I now understand Deuteronomy 8:2. God speaks to us in the wilderness. God also humbles and proves us in the wilderness. The wilderness period can last days, or years, depending on how quickly we learn its lessons.
In the meantime, I am changing and building a new circle of women, leaving some folks behind, stepping out on faith, doing it Afraid and Alone. WALKING INTO MY DESTINY!!!!